My update

I think it’s been around 2 months of more activity. I picked a great time of day to work out alone in our company’s fitness center. Only one other woman and she is great to talk to if I’m in the mood or can talk. huff puffing.  It’s been over 2 months since my Dad died and he would want me to continue my healthy goals. He was an inspiration when it came to healthy weight loss and taking care of himself. when he was 65 he had high cholesterol and started “working out” at 5 am for about an hour. He brought the chol down and didn’t have to take meds. He was very healthy up until he couldn’t walk anymore, then he still wanted to be healthy, mainly for my mom and us. He had a full long life and did exactly what he wanted, mentally.

So I have this 4 day a week plan of elliptical/treadmill habit that I am trying to stick to. I want to continue thru summer too, it gets too hot outside to run for me (sweating) then I go back to work for the rest of the day, don’t want to stink too much, however that would keep people away and I would have less work to do, hmmmmm. Use my lunch time for that purpose.  I have been push mowing the lawn too, my husband wanted a rider, and I have so far talked him out of it, he says he needs the exercise too, we shall see when the temps are 90 degrees out…..

I am down in the 165 area again, would like to actually make it to 160, to know that I can. I’ve been stuck in this weight range for about 5 years after having my second daughter. 

ate my scale

Yes, I did it I ate my scale, I was that upset and miserable. thought it was time for a change……

Finally some realization

I am trying to do journaling everyday of what and when I eat. I have been having dizzy spells and headaches, maybe dehydration. So I started drinking more water, and cutting back on diet pop. I have been listening to my stomach, to see if I am actually hungry or if it’s a craving. I have been inspired by many of you, from reading your posts about your progress. I have a goal to drink alcohol with my husband at home on special occasions not socially, be the DDriver when we go out. Finally reached the pt where I should quit. My father and sister had to quit alcohol at young ages because of health reasons too. I am inspired by a co worker who is losing weight on her own without the WWAtchers group we have sponsored here at work and she is private about it, so that others don’t judge her progress.  I have a plan to find things to do at night this winter to keep from being bored and going to the kitchen and eating junk. I am trying to keep the kitchen free of junk food, for me and the kids. my house needs more cleaning and clutter clearing done. I need to stay out of my funk I get in where I don’t want to cook, come home and sit and watch tv, while my children grow before my eyes. I think the high gas prices inspired me to start cooking more and not driving to get take out. (that’s the only good part of the high gas prices for me)My husband saw a video of himself from summer with a beer belly that should be on a 50 year old man not a 32 year old man. Made him think, so he will easily drop 20 pounds this winter, without exercising. I have been trying to go longer periods with smaller meals to try to reset my appetite. I don’t think I can do a 24 hour fast because after being awake in the morning for about 5 hours I start getting the low sugar feeling and probably would end up passing out if I didn’t eat for 24 hours. I have plans to exercise on my treadmill at my parents house after work so the kids can play and I put my big dog on the other treadmill so he can walk too, thanks Cesar for that idea. It is already unusually cold Feb weather here, so walking outdoors means losing your ears to the cold. So thanks everyone for posting your ideas, keep them coming.

weekend alcohol binges

Why is it on the weekend I can’t tell myself no to those calorie kickers, beer. One turns to 2, 2 turns to 3 and so on…… I start talking, not paying attention to the count and next thing I know it’s over. Next day, darn why did I do that again?

Ive tried quitting, almost for 4 weeks. didn’t make the magic month. I quit twice when I was pregnant with my 2 kids. but can’t find the right motivation to do it again. 3 out of the 4 people in my family have quit drinking because of the physical effects. Bad hangover, loss of a day, etc. No one is telling me to quit, which is good. I would probably rebel anyway. I don’t feel the need to drink during the week, but if friends are around and drinking 9 times out of 10, I will join in. Believe me, these are not alcohol pushing friends either. they ask, then don’t ask again. So that’s not the challenge. I have said in front of my family, that I was going to quit, they leave me alone too. no pushy comments.

Any help or input would help greatly.

my 8 year old

I am scared now as a mother of an 8 year old daughter, of saying too much or not enough to my daughter about her weight. I don’t think she is overweight, just has a belly(I think most 8 year old girls do until they get taller?) but I was her size at her age. When I hit my teen years I had horrible junk food binges when left alone watching tv. I was chunky but could hide it. Now I have leftover weight from 2 pregnancies, my 8 year old and a 4 year old. Haven’t been able to shed many pounds in 4 years. I worry if I don’t start helping her now, she might turn into a junkfood junkie too. I think it’s inherited, my second daughter eats salad, fruit and veggies like they are candy. Me and daughter #1, not so much.  I might be on too high alert and should lay off daughter #1 and keep encouraging to eat fruit, veggies are another battle by themselves.  it’s hard also because my husband “teases” her about her belly.  Not very often, but enough that I stick up for her and say she is only 8 and has years to grow upward. any other advice for this worrier?

Nighttime

I can eat a low cal meal, put spaghetti w/some meat in a used weight watchers bowl to measure my portion better. I also had one piece of wheat bread. i was full, just like at lunch when I have a micro meal from WW or lean cuisine, Michelina’s is cheaper and they have low cal meals for “dieters” with WW points on them. but when my girls wanted a snack later, i found myself wanting a snack. so I had a granola bar about 150 cal. not big on fruit yet, so don’t have fruit hanging around. the girls go in waves, sometimes fruit is a hit, sometimes not. Then fell asleep around 10:30 or so woke up during the night sometime and felt the urge to eat again! Why I don’t know, so I had another gran bar another 150 cal. I am not going to buy these gran bars for some time because I crave them and eat them like they are candy. I can’t figure out why I have these cravings at night when I was full from supper around 6:30?? Legs hurt, so I couldn’t take a walk to get my mind off of it. otherwise, would have. any suggestions?